Tuesday, April 15, 2014

So a funny thing...

It turns out that I can't just quit the retreat thing cold turkey...
soo I decided to just tone it down a little.
Less time, easy location, close to home, not as much worrying.

That being said I am bringing in a lady I am so excited to learn from,
She's talented. 
 If you don't know about her go on over to her blog
and educate yourself about her awesome self.
You will want to be her friend, pinky swear.
She is coming for a Friday night/Saturday class.
Only 12 lucky girls will be able to join us.
You probably want to be one of the lucky ones, right? 
Jump on over to the An Artsy Weekend page...
it'll give you the 411.

Thanks for not holding the whole not being able to quit cold turkey over my head.
You're a peach.
*big smile*

Monday, March 3, 2014

My Biggest Blessing...

I have been given the gift of 3 daughters.
They are so many adjectives I don't even want to get started.
My first was born when I was 19.
She took my heart and did something with it I never thought possible.
Then I married the love of my life.
We struggled with infertility for 11 very long hard years.
Along came a blessing I thought would never come.
Her name is Maya.
We thought we were done.
3 years later a blessing we NEVER even dreamed of came blustering into our lives.
She threw our world into a tailspin.
Her name is Peyton and she is...well...I can't explain how I feel about this girl.
It took me awhile to bond with her because she literally changed every aspect of my world.
But when we bonded...we bonded good and strong.

I was in school when the first appeared in my life.
I was going to go back to school before the second came.
When the third was in 1st grade I figured it was my time to take some of me and do something with it that I really really wanted to.
Turns out that is not the plan.
My two littles are struggling.
Life isn't fair for them in so many ways.
They are strong but right now they aren't quite strong enough to deal with what they have been given.
A dear friend pointed out to me that they are at a crossroads.

I already knew this.
I've been praying about it for months.
I thought maybe the nagging doubts about what I was doing where caused by bi-polar.
Maybe self-doubt was taking over.
Maybe I just didn't want to give it up.
Sometimes I feel selfish and just want to be about me.
I have a fear of failure and I was feeling like a failure.

It took a prompting that led me to a wise mother-friend.
She was waiting for me.
She answered my need for advice before the question even came out of my mouth.
God had prepared her to give me the answer I needed to hear.
He knew I would listen to her.
She is a good woman.

I didn't choose the life that is all about me.
I chose motherhood and motherhood isn't about me time.
It's about choosing what is best for these little people who need me.
They need me right now more than ever.
I am their safe place.
I am what they need...their mother.
I love them with all of my heart.
I want them to overcome the challenges and soar higher than ever anticipated.
I need to be there for them at the crossroads to guide them.
It's just not my time.

I love doing my art retreats.
I have met women that have enriched my life in ways they will never even know.
I have met friends who are life friends.
They know my heart in ways that others won't.
I have learned from teachers that taught me so much more than art.
I will miss it so much it hurts.
It's just not my time for this.
It's taken me months to let this reality sink in.
I thank all of you for the support and love and friendship.

So...with all of that said.
This retreat is my last for awhile.
I don't know how long...I know this year.
Maybe the next and the next.
I have to be here for the ones who mean the most.
My family is everything to me and they need me here wholeheartedly.

Why is it that sometimes the decisions that are right are the ones that hurt most?


Saturday, March 1, 2014

Meatloaf and Pinned Potatoes from PW


I used to LOVE Martha.
She was the queen of all things domestic as far
as I was concerned.  That was before the www was
as big as it is and she was IT for me.
I would actually take lunch at the nursery I worked at so
that I could come home at 10 and watch her show.

So, one day she had another Martha on.
Martha Phelps Stamps.
I immediately found her book at Barnes & Noble
(no Amazon yet...gasp)
and rushed to buy it.
I read it cover to cover just like a novel.
I started cooking all of the recipes.
Cooking with skin on chicken and butter.
It is a well used book in my kitchen.
The kind that has notes in it.

I have never liked meatloaf and only eaten it
when my mom made me sit at the kitchen table
long after Sunday dinner was over and I'm sure there were
some gagging noises involved.
I mean even the name meat loaf was just too much.
There was just too many weird things put together in the same pan.
and onions...holy ick.

Anywho...The New Southern Basics brought a whole new
attitude towards meatloaf to the Welcker house.
It is one of my husband's favorite dinners and really I love it too.
What the??  Who would've known??

I love to cook and I really love to cook on Sundays
when I can make a dinner that maybe takes a little more time.
It's a great time to try out the recipes I have pinned on Pinterest.
This Sunday I made Meat Loaf and some yummy potatoes.
I wanted to share our dinner with you.
So this is the recipe along with a few changes I've made.
I would highly recommend that cookbook if you love cookbooks.
The recipes are yummy and it's just a lovely book.

MEAT LOAF


2 lbs. ground beef
1lb pork sausage
1 onion, chopped
6 cloves garlic, minced
2 ribs celery, chopped
1 red bell pepper, chopped
1 1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp black pepper
1/4 tsp dried sage
2/3 cup tomato puree'
1/3 cup dijon mustard
2 tsp Worcestershire
1 egg
1/2 cup breadcrumbs

GLAZE
1 cup tomato puree'
1/2 cup brown sugar
8 tsp. vinegar

In a large mixing bowl mix everything together...I like to just use my hands.  It's a messy business
but it works the best.  Pack into two loaf pans...I freeze one.  Pour glaze on top. Bake at 400 for about 1 hr.


NUMMY!
Only change I would make is to maybe make 1/2 a recipe more
of the creamy goodness and a little more salt.


I love The Pioneer Woman...that woman.
She's the bomb.
But her recipes goes straight to my parts that don't need anymore added to em.
As she says...you might have to spend a little more time on the treadmill.
*big smile*
But sometimes it just has to happen!

So, there ya go.
Sunday dinner at the Welcker's.

xo,
marci